Never Been So Unsure Before

I’m writing this a month before my end semester exams. I have never been so unsure of myself before. Pretty close to the breaking point with respect to my motivation to do any of this anymore… My grades so far for the semester are absolute shit and falling still, I’ve taken on too many responsibilities […]


Lately, there has been a lot going through my mind, and even more so in life. Another semester has started and I realize how quickly the past year went, but that’s a pretty cliché thing to say, so I won’t bicker on about that. The research project that I had been working on is still […]

A Good Day, You Say? Never Heard Of It.

Some would say that that’s a pretty pessimistic title, and I would agree with them. To be honest, I don’t even feel that bad anymore; I thought about writing this down about two hours ago and in the time that I’ve spent since, I’m not actually feeling negative anymore; but the title will stay because […]

First Attempt at Execution

So… remember that beautiful plan that I had come up with, thinking it will be the end to all troubles and the salvation I needed? Yeah, so far, hasn’t really worked out that way… First off, I went back home last week for two days, ended up getting food poisoning or something (don’t remember what […]

Shaking Things Up

I have been having a lot of anxiety attacks recently, which leave me completely unable to work for a long time. It’s that same feeling I used to get, as if somebody were standing on my chest and choking me at the same time. Most of it stems from the fact that I feel I […]

Feelin’ Good

Finally! I am actually fucking happy. No reason that I can pin down. To be honest, that’s probably because I can’t figure out which one to pin it down on. Where I live, the weather is pretty extreme. In the afternoon the temperature soars up to 43 degrees almost everyday, and after so many days […]

On Listening To Music

When I was going through the lowest period in my life so far, which was after graduating from school, I realised something that changed what music meant to me completely. I’m gonna be using “we” instead of “I” here, because conversations and discussions I’ve had with some people have led me to conclude that I’m […]